Does anyone else hear a voice screaming, why?
When you’re with a partner or friends, sometimes wonder, how?
Where do I fit?
Why do I keep doubting we have a relationship, when you stand there telling me “I love you”?
Why do I feel like my partner cares more about others than they do about me?
Sometimes I even wonder, I am too boring to be with them?
Why do I keep getting the feeling that I am last on your list of, “things I need to care about”, when you have held my number one spot for 3 weeks straight?
Am I thinking too hard?
Being too sensitive?
Why do I still now, after so long, get anxiety about seeing you?
Even though I know I left you to make the decision to leave me, why am I afraid?
Did I ask for this? Does that not mean it can hurt?
Am I ever going to see that I am hurting and that is okay?
Do I say anything as I see you walk by?
Do I sit by while slowly pushing all my feelings off to one side?
Do I pretend not to care?
Maybe someday I will learn that I can, but are these feelings too hard to face?
Will I learn somehow that maybe I am not top priority but I still matter greatly?
Can I live with that?
Yes.
Lex Barrie 