I can’t sleep.

Right now it’s about 1 am and I just can’t seem to find the motivation to.

I know it sounds funny. Who needs motivation to sleep these days when we are always up and running around?

Well the truth is, I have a more important question.

Who needs sleep when they don’t have to work tomorrow? What a concept. It’s like I am defying natural order or something. Not really though, we just let my mind pretend that’s what’s going on.

It’s such a rebel.

Jeez I think I am hallucinating.

I put up Halloween decorations with my Nana yesterday! They were so pretty all lit up. It made me happy. Those thoughts keep me up.

Oh my gosh Spotify is trying to keep me up too! It just keeps playing my favorite songs. Wait, I think that’s because this is my playlist.

Yup. That’s it.

Wow maybe I do need to sleep.

Before I do though, I wanted to confess something. I slowly realize everyday something new about myself. Today (or at least in the last hour), I realized I have been looking at a situation the wrong way for so many years believing that I was just being selfish.

I won’t talk anymore about that though. I don’t want to get into that.

Oh god, I need to start skipping these songs. I swear, everytime I think I will end the night on this note, another song starts.

I can’t help it.

Maybe I don’t want to sleep.

Maybe I can’t sleep.

Eventually when I wake up and read this in eight hours, I will realize that thoughts kept me up and move on from there.

That’s how it usually works out.

But for the moment, no sleep for me thanks.

It’s about time I did something wild.

God I need a nap 😛